Emick's Dirty Little Secret

unstable feeling..

Sunday, December 6, 2009, 3:43 PM

i don't really know how i feel tonight

a combination of guilt, self hatred, scared and deeply in love.

all those obstacles

they're chasing the sanity in me

scratching the core of the heart
running out of words.

curiosity; an inevitable addiction, that soon fall into tears

i thought about all that i said and done

if it's right or wrong

i wondered if anyone would react the same way

if they feel how i feel

or if maybe i'm just a big mess

i wondered if this will ever continue to stay

if it keeps on blooming and shall never wilt

i wonder if you knew that all inside of me is you

that floating feeling of the lungs underneath the skin and bones

this thirst of your voice and the hunger for your existence

only a glance of your face can tame the weather within seconds

i am really sorry for loving you this much

larger than the heart itself

i miss you terribly.

Labels: drowning in a pool of air

Never ending heart beats

Tuesday, November 24, 2009, 10:23 AM

i can't stop falling in love with you

i could never and i would never want to stop.

because everything is so damn fine when i see your face

i could just die when i see you

you make it so peaceful

especially when you are lying down. asleep :)

it makes me smile constantly to see how adorable you can be

if only specific eyes can see what we see in us

i would love to have the opportunity to spend my everyday with you.

i love your beautiful dress and your efforts of finding ways to look good for me

In fact, you always do look beautiful in my eyes to be honest

its not beauty i search for entirely, its the quality you own

and you don't need to change that

for who you are is what i fell in love with.

i miss the times when you didn't notice that i was staring at you

the way you walk, the way you look excited..

the way you look so angry, the way you look blank when you paused

the way you pluck your fingers one by one, counting process in your mind

the way you smile and the way you laugh so hard

as i farted in the air

the way you ucap ucap me in a metaphoric way but i always got what you mean

and i start tickling you, the way you curve your worried eyes

the way you sit there and watch me singing and dancing horribly in k-box

the days when we played mini hockey, as if there's no one but the two of us who only existed

the way you laugh at me, the way you sweat inside my rotten car

the way you run, the way you eat

and a lot of things that you did

that melts my heart...

but most of all, how you accepted me for who i am.

i miss it all, the days you were in my arms.

i am very very very grateful that you're still there

wanting to see me too :')

and everything feels so cold and quiet when you're not around

i miss you every time you fall asleep

and all the times when i feel that you are so far away

but somehow you still can make me smile

kayak idiyota gitu lho

:8B

aww baby, there are thousands of ways that you could take my breathe away

i would never want to be with anyone else but you

and i would never let anyone take that away from me.

cause i've found someone that i could fit in

someone so completely fine, you knock me out of my mind

someone like you

i just want to be with you

just you Liyana. Just you :')

sigh

Labels: I miss you heaps baby.

Four Months You've Colored My Life

Saturday, November 21, 2009, 11:17 AM

If only time would flew a bit faster

I would probably be by your side right now :)

for two months I've been a far from you

To be honest, it worries me to think that i can't be there

beating in an awkward pace, standing soul to soul.

i'd love to breathe in a careless mind

because you are my freedom

please don't let this go

*sigh*

Thank you, for being my beautiful sunrise.

one of your abilities baby, is that..

you make me wanna dance and jump so high =)

because

you are the light that attracts me closer and closer

and never want to look away

just like a helpless fly that flies to that death purple electric box

"i can't help it, it's so beautiful" (bugs life)

*random time*

but the only thing is that the purple electric box is haven

and my haven lies within you

so i don't care if i'm just a stupid fly.

you make me smile like there's no obstacles around me

and i don't care if words are meant to be an invisible, but sharp objects

as all humans are imperfect

but all i know is that my lips are hunger for yours

and so does my heart

as it sang the same rhythm,

the semi-quavers of love

everytime i see your face.

all those melodies they comes from you

i love all about you.

and i could care less about the dodgy future

i just can't wait to see you again.

and i'll keep on waiting, for that very day to come.

Labels: Happy Four Months Liyana, I Love You.

Sushi :D

Monday, November 16, 2009, 10:05 AM

I made my own sushi today *pede*

i didn't know it was damn easy :)

kalau inda, inda cemani~

hahahahahahaha

i hunger from school

my brain become creativity

so i ate sushkaba!

sushi + kebab

sushkaba.! (staccato)

kabaaa~!

hahahahaha awu wah, inda menjadi.

i rolled this with my bare naked hands

the rice was hot and so does the keba'ab

i've learnt that.. sometimes, after 5 minute is quite thoughtful :)

but i was hungery! hungery hungery hungerrr!

until next time, it'll be cool-er than this.

or should i say.. wicckee'edd

i'd sell a set of three for 3 pounds

*pede*

Labels: i feeel so sleeeppyyy. zZzzzZzzz

The Journey of Grocery Shopping :O

Saturday, November 14, 2009, 8:11 AM

There's nothing much about this post.

I'm just pointing out directions and environment

of the place where i live now

especially for Liyana to see (:

Handal ah orang main basikal!

I don't know what it's called tapinya

their climbing the obstacles with their bikes

by jumping and balancing

I left home for grocery shopping about 12pm and it took me two damn hours

wasted two hours of watching her on webcam :(

anyway..

i went pass the Car Phone warehouse and KFC

which is the opposite of The Basins (Student's Accommodation)

I wish i could live here

But its quite expensive per week

plus! macam nada privacy jua

so yeah.

but the place pretty nice

especially the canteen

and the belakangnya ada water way, which is macam jalan

tapi air, untuk boat

lawa! :D

and i went for a short cut, cause my mission is going to Euro Asia

which is near the train station

about 15 mins walk from home

kalau pakai short cut that is =pp kalau dari town 40 minutes I guess

so i went from the back door =p

i have to pass a building which is once called the Wool Worth

Tapinya tutup sudah, pasal bankrupt kali

which is located at the Rushes

The Rushes is actually like the shopping square of loughborough

tapinya kadai kadainya damit and banyak kadai tutup sudah

In the Rushes ada Markc Spencer, Cargo Home Shop, JD sports, LA Fitness Centre, TK Max and HMV

TK Maxx

Gila, disini pun ada TK kali ah

this is the milimewah version of di sini :P

this is where i buy some of my stuffs

budget brader~

one end of the CD racks in HMV

I went to HMV tadi sekajap cause i went on youtube

to see what's new about The Used

and i found their song Dark Days

When i listen to it for the first time, terus fell in love with the song

The New Album: Art Work

Dark Days- The Used

The song has an interesting dynamic control

where the song changes for soft to loud and back to medium loud

and i love the rhythm of the drums and the effects of the guitars

with relative minors added to harmonize the chords

Bert's vocal key is getting higher and higher

with beautiful warm reverb

the recording quality is super B (superb) :P

this song makes me wanna run

and jump like crazy :D

the break down part is song amazing

these guys are brilliant musicians.

The Fucking Used <3

unfortunately nada di HMV

and unfortunately i just find out that Dark Days is not in the Art Work album

its in the explicit album, Shallow Believer :/

great. i just bought Art Work from the net haha.

so i went pass the rushes and lintas the back part of the place

which leads to the Old Church

and walk a little bit further

passing Royal Mail

and TADA!

Euro Asia

Tempat makanan Halal

terutama Daging and Selipar

hahaha

Somehow by looking at this picture

i could smell the scent of blood and raw meat

Daging sama talur, talurnya halal ah sini

yang kuningnya atu kena sembelih bisai bisai sebelum kana masukkan dalam shell talur

"jangan talo~"

Looks easier to reach the place through photos

but its quite a long walk

15 mins orang puteh pace, 20-25 mins lengang lengang melayu

i think i was lengang lengang tadi

hahahaha xD

and then i walk my walk back to the rushes and near the rush is where Wilkinson is

I went there to buy a new duvet

no more kumbayau for a couple of months baby

hahahaha :P

Palui ah, i didn't check the price tadi

I thought it was cheap

Sekalinya inda :'O

I just find out after paid for it atthe counter

i was like what the fuck antam lah aher sudah ni

I wasted a lot of time di HMV looking for the used punya new album

and movies

I wanna want the Haunting.. cause it looks creepy

and Eden's Lake jua

I think

and after Wilkinson

i went to Sainsburry to buy Milk, Cereals, Cookies, Bread, TAPINYA!

satu barang lupa bali

apa tu conditioner untuk baju namanya

i have to go there no, and buy it before my housemates balik

cause they're depending on me to buy the grocery for this week :/

and si baby tidur sudah

i guess i shouldn't kacau her tonight

i just wish i could tuck her to bed

and pecks her cheek and forehead before she goes to sleep

one day, i hope i can :B

i guess i'll be heading to Sainsburry now

cause I've got Coursework to do

but Uncharted 2 is in my head :/

my PS is just approximately 60 centimetres from where i am sitting right now

*glancing at the PS*

ummm...

*loook away and bite my nails*

cemana niii???

tapinya si baby tidur sudah *kirai kirai*

i think i could play it for a just an hour

ah baby ah? :D heheh

we'll see

:8)

Loughborough Fare

Friday, November 13, 2009, 12:45 PM

Friday, 13th November 2009

I managed to persuade Waki and Dayat to go to the fare

honestly, it wasn't really that fun today cause it was raining and cold

for now i am sneezing

blame the weather!

*curse at the sky*

I went out from my cave around 4.30pm and headed to town

where the fare is located

I was playing Uncharted 2 when Waki agreed to go out and told me that

we will meet in town

i thought it would be like a hour saja

because they were planning to go to the fitness center

and i met Waki and his sister, Ira near the Blockbuster area

which is luar luar town

after passing Sainsburry

i saw and we played this game

since its the first in my sight

inda tempting di mana tu ada 10 pounds kan gugur

haha tapinya inda dapat

and there's this as well

i was focusing on this one, pasal

i love airguns :)

tapinya, inda dapat! :O

#@$%!(*&^!!

and so i tried other games

I asked Dayat to go to the Blockbuster where we should met

and head for the nearest ATM machine

for extra weapon (money)

I played that shooting a gun with a cork as it's bullet

i almost hit that shit, tapi i missed

so i didn't get any prizes

i did not managed to play the air gun pasalnya...

satu: patungnya bida

dua: hujan :/

and so we played this basketball thing

you'll need to score two shots to win a huge rag doll

i played for about five times, i think...

but i did not managed to bring one home :(

i really wanted one

to show si baby that i won something

tapinya nada :'O

i'm sorry baby, i let you down

kalau dapat satu, i wanted to give it to youu

well, i targeted scooby doo

pasal ya macam nyaman kalau di impit :8)

and then we met yamin and hafiz in front of the cinema

oh dayat wanted to watch 2012 next Wednesday

i think i'm tagging along cause the movie sounds like a fun movie to watch

because it was raining and we were soaking wet

we managed to play one ride saja tonight

and because they have to go to the fitness center

so time is quite short

but surprisingly,i didn't realized i left home for nearly three hours :/

Top Buzz

I was very excited to play this game

sekalinya sudah naik teingat Final Destination

*paranoid*

pasal i sat at the out end of the ride

and it felt like my feet are going to hit the metal board

yatah paranoid

a closer view of the ride

i've always love carousels

i wanted to take pictures and edit it someday

and i wanted to be a picture of me and si bebek

one day i hope that it'll come true

if only i could spend the night with you baby,

learn more of what you like about and what you don't

and what rides or games you wanted to play

how you would react after playing the rides

would you ever need my comfort

if you would be more excited than i am

if you would ever want to play the silly games that i wanted to play

cause i believe that you know me

and the silly games i would set my eyes on

and you know me

better than anyone one else

i wonder if you like sweet food like cotton candies and donuts

i know you can't eat sweet stuffs because of your braces

but i'd love to picture you there with me

and speaking of wonders, i'm really sorry

for tonight.

sigh :'(

the troop of the night

Yamin (paling depan), adi waie yang damit (small kid), Dayat (next to the kid)

Waki (with the tiger he won), Ira (with hoodies) and Hafiz (hoodies puteh)

thanks for wanting to go out guys

i'd still go out even if i have to go alone

but if i went alone, it'll be boring

cause you've got no one to share a laugh with.

i bought this cold drink. palui ah, sudah pun sajuk hahaha

i think freezed me brain

and twelve donuts

palui ah inda nyaman

uweek

i feel dizzy right now

i think im going to be sick

I need more hot milo!

Labels: probably going to town again tomorrow

orange

Thursday, November 12, 2009, 9:50 AM

im going to remember this date although im quite forgetful.. so im writing it down here so i can rememberr. hoh! finally you appeared! hahahaaha maybe i should do this often =pp

peace~

Labels: i love you liyanaa